Wednesday, January 05, 2011

In Out

For ten days I spent hours in a tiny room as big as an Islamic grave: 2m*1m*2.5m. I sat there in the dark, breathing. In. Out. In. Out. Observing my body's sensations.

Every now and then my monkey mind jumped from one branch to the next. Angry, painful, dark, and dirty thoughts. In. Out. In. Out. Back to the breathing & sensations it brings.

On the 6th day I started to see the brighter side of things again. In. Out. In. Out. My smile is back. Genuine smile.

On the 9th day my body felt so light and full of energy. I felt like skipping and jumping all the time. I sat there, breathing in the dark. In. Out. In. Out. Every single cell in me is smiling widely. Happily.

I came out with a heart full of love, ready to face to world one breath at a time. In. Out.


Anonymous said...

That's just amazing. And great. And it looks like you know how to keep it up.

However somehow my sceptic and nasty self wonders: shouldn't there be an occasional break? Aren't "angry, painful, dark, and dirty thoughts" sometimes relieving, inescapable or even necessary?


triesti said...

We have 5 minutes break every hour, 1.5 hours breakfast, 2hours lunch, 1 hour tea break. No dinner tho. Most of the time I did it in the hall or in my room, not only in that 'cell/grave thingy'. As with the thoughts, they make us suffer dont you think?

Multibrand said...

Hi Triesti,
What an experience, WOW!
Are you meditating ?

triesti said...

@harry I try to do it..not always successful tho in daily practice.